Burnt Out...or not..

So I was in San Diego for a bit this month and I was able to attend a Christian club called Intervarsity with Karen and one thing that stood out to me was this.
Christians are more known for what they oppose than who they are.
and it's so totally true!! especially with these propositions about gay marriages and stuff..yeah..

Something else that happened this week...
Yeah I am involved with a lot of activities...
school,
work,
family retreat worship and committee
VBS committee
praise night
sports

hm... but I've been feeling so blah lately and down...and I feel really antisocial, like I don't want to hang out with people..
and I've been thinking about it whether this is what it feels like to be burnt out...
but I think about it more...
and being burnt out is when you blame the church, blame other people, just plain BLAMING others for how you feel and for everything...

instead...I've been feeling that everyone else is blaming ME....for things....making me feel like such a failure...
so what's the opposite of burning out? burning in?
what?!
I'm confused...

on another note...I've been addicting to watching House again...fun things...=]
funny watching House makes me want to become a doctor more...and I feel like I've just totally missed my chance...cause I would have tried harder to ace classes and stuff...but things didn't work out. I have way too many hobbies for my own good....Too many hobbies lead me so lost in what I want as a concentrated major....
I think the major goal of why I want to pursue a Design and Media Arts major is because the media is going to always be a worldly thing, they present images that are not suitable for God's standard of living....like...they really concentrate on sexual images to catch peoples attention...I really wonder if I can change that...use more holy images to catch people's attention?...hm...
*ponders* that totally doesn't really make sense but meh, I still have time to sort things out...